Wednesday, October 29, 2008

And so the dance comes to an end...

Well, it's over people. I made the call yesterday and ended it with Greg.

While I'm sad at it being over, I think I'm more relieved than anything else - I hadn't seen him in a couple of weeks, we were barely talking, we hadn't had sex in far too long. They say absence makes the heart grow fonder - but in my case it didn't.

I did fall in love with him though, and that is the part that hurts the most. I could see me introducing him to my parents. I could see us moving in together. In my mind, he could have been "the one".

But unfortunately things change. We were both going through stressful times with work and other shit, and it just became easier not to make the effort.

There's so much that I'm going to miss about being with him. He treated me with respect, he made me feel important. I felt like I was the only one in the room when we were out at the clubs. He cooked breakfast for me, he bought me lindt dark chocolate, he knew how I liked my coffee. I just loved sitting on his couch with him laying across me, holding my hand while we watched crap TV.

The sex was great too.

But it just wasn't enough. Something was missing, and I can't really put my finger on it.

I've got no bad feelings towards him, and I really hope he doesn't either.

6 comments:

Kezza said...

Thats all rather shit then, but I know what it feels like when something isn't there. It might hurt like buggery for now but in time it'll be okay and when you find that person who is everything you want and a little something extra you'll stop worrying about the last goodbye and it'll all me roses and bunny rabbits. In the meantime I'd suggest a large helping of booze (but make sure your phone is securely somewhere you are not) rally some mates together and go and paint the town red.

Andy Man said...

That's sad mate, but you sound like you've got your head screwed on.

Speaking of screwing... go and get some

simple simon said...

break ups suck balls. Hate them so much. Hope you feel better soon matey.

scottiejt said...

I hope you're doing ok. This is my first comment on your blog, but i've just recently gone thru the same thing. So chin up.

Ben said...

Thanks for all your comments guys (welcome scottiejt) - its always hard when things end, but feeling better as the days go by.

Just have to not let temptation to go and get trashed tomorrow night take over...

Anonymous said...

There are no hard feelings here Ben. I will always cherish the time that we had, but unfortunately we were both in a different place at the commencement of our relationship, and a lot of things in my life were changing. Always have a place in my heart and hopefully still be in touch and mates. We are both too mature to let this get in the way of friendship.
Greg (the now ex-boyfriend)