Sunday, January 10, 2010

Farewell... I think

My health took a turn for the worse late last year - it's fairly serious, and it possibly will eventually kill me, but right now my life isn't impacted much at all. I just have to destress and look after myself (ie - stop drinking).

Depression is a real risk right now, so at my Doctor's insistence I see a counsellor every week. I didn't think it would be of any benefit, but I really enjoy it, and feel like I'm actually getting my head together.

However the counselling has taken away my desire/my need to blog. I have an outlet to share my emotions and problems, and I have immediate feedback and validation of what's going on in my head. I'm also in a space right now where I don't want to bare my soul to the blogsphere anymore.

So do I put Zeke to bed? Shut down the blog altogether? I don't think so. I still need a creative outlet, but I just don't know what form it will take.

So i think it's goodbye for now... its been grand writing and getting all your feedback over the last year or so.

Keep writing... I'll keep reading!

PS - add me on facebook if you haven't already. Apparently my status updates are hilarious.

9 comments:

phishez said...

I have to say, I am sorry to see you go. But I am glad that I've added you on farcebook.

I'm also happy to hear that you're doing something about your depression. Mine had a pretty serious blow out last week. Hitailed it out of the city for a few days, back to work for a few days, and then took 2 days off because I really didn't feel like going in. And it was magic. I do feel better now.

I will miss your blog.

Dyl said...

Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us all this time. My thoughts are with you. x

Damien Oz said...

I will be sorry to see the blog go but I do understand the very harsh task master that is Depression.

We are here for you whenever you wish to return :)

Shalom and all the best for you matey.

Damien

Ms Smack said...

Honey, good luck on the next phase of your life and health. I hope you can remember to surround yourself with positive life forces, not negative ones, and seriously, take care of yourself. Sleep more. Eat better. Take your meds. Love yourself, honestly.

You're a darling.

Write when you wanna, or not.

Lots of love
Cath
xxx

TechSlice said...

Good luck with your health issues.

AJohnP said...

Your health is clearly the most important thing...so take care of that!!
Now I just have to find you on facebook.... :-)

The Mutant said...

You can't pull out too. There'll be no one left. The blogshere will be left in the hands of a funch of fucking emo teenagers.

Meh, what would I know. I'll see you on 'the book'. Much love to you Sweetheart

cb said...

I'm really sorry to hear that you are ill! I hope you get to feeling better and doing the things that you need to do to make your life a good one.

Think about blogging though... it can be a decent outlet, too!

Victor said...

Look after yourself, Ben.

Best wishes.